Part 2 – Moving Forward
So as I left off in Part 1, I mentioned how that no matter what, being together is the best place to be. I am grateful to experience life with a best friend & human that I call my husband.
God sure knew that Josh and I needed each other. My husband adds so much fruitfulness to my life, and our marriage is something I DO NOT take for granted.
If you are navigating an infertility journey alone, I take these next few moments to let you know that YOU ARE STRONG + YOU ARE BRAVE.
Our story might not look like yours, but I believe that we are all connected to each other in some way through this kind of journey.
Let me continue to tell you about ours.
So as I mentioned in Part 1, going through the pain of an ectopic pregnancy and finding out I would not longer be able to conceive naturally, we decided to give ourselves time to think carefully about the decision on what would be best for me moving forward.
After my emergency surgery, we took several months of praying and seeking the Lord to see what we should do.
With one fallopian tube left, should I have surgery to remove the other infected tube, or should we continue to try naturally and pray for a miracle???
Those were the quesitons I asked myself (and God) daily.
Josh and I had so many conversations back and forth about what we felt was the right thing for us.
We came to the conclusion, that although we 1000% believe that God does miracles, we felt him lead us in the direction of me having surgery to remove my other tube. So, shortly after coming to that decision, we scheduled a surgery and on February 7, 2020, my other tube was removed. Honestly that was a hard decision to come to in itself, thinking about all the other decisions we would have to make following this one.
I was basically taking away my natural God-given way of conception.
But we knew it was what was meant for US. Although it was hard to come to terms with, I remembered God speaking to me and telling me that my worth and identify was NOT found in anything but HIM. That brought me so much peace.
We had a wonderful doctor that we met at one of the best hospitals in the world. We are so thankful for the Cleveland Clinic and the wonderful doctors, nurses, and IVF team we’ve met there.
My surgery went well, and recovery did too. We waited about a month after my surgery to being starting up the process of IVF again.
So when mid-March rolled around and we made some of our first IVF appointments, COVID hit.
This felt like another huge setback.
After completing several prelimnary tests/bloodwork appointments, we were put on hold with moving forward with IVF due to the Cleveland Clinic Fertility center shutting down.
It was closed for about 3 months, which felt like some of the longest days as we waited for the opportunity to start things up again.
As if this wasn’t enough…. around this time, my husband started developing neck pain. Not thinking too much of it, he tried many different things to help ease his constant pain.
While quarantining in our homes for many months, like the rest of the country, we did many projects around the house. One of those projects included installing flooring in our basement.
He did over 1,000 sq ft of flooring so we just assumed that his pain was coming from his muscles being over worked from that.
Well, boy were we wrong.
By the time July, August and September rolled around and we were ready to get the ball rolling with IVF again, we learned some devastating news about my husband.
This was going to be yet another huge set back. One that honestly I was not ready for emotionally.
…..to be continued in Part 3.